So much has changed...

So much has changed in the last few weeks and I’m noticing that the novelty is wearing off. I am wishing that some things would go back to normal. I am finding myself feeling really disappointed that I cannot see my family and my friends. It’s hard not to be together. I miss my people. 

I am allowing myself to feel disappointed. To feel sad. Of course I am feeling these emotions. There are a lot of things that I can’t do that I want to do and I want it to be different. 

But it can’t be different right now. It is how it is. 

So, I am allowing myself to be down in the dumps sometimes. I am allowing myself to feel what that feels like. And I am making darn sure not to beat myself up for feeling that way. 

What I am not doing is staying in the dumps. Staying in the sadness and disappointment does not serve me. So I am giving equal time to what sucks as well as what is amazing. 

It sucks that I can’t be with my family for Easter. 

It’s amazing that I have a backyard where I can sit in a comfy chair with the sun shining down on me. 

It sucks that I can’t celebrate very special birthdays this month - at least the way I want to. 

It’s amazing that I have a loving and healthy husband and son. 

It sucks that Toby isn’t able to be with his friends and teachers at daycare. 

It’s amazing that I have the internet so I can connect with the people I love. 

It sucks that when my bag of chips is empty, I have to wait until the end of the week to get another bag. 

It’s amazing that incredible human beings are working at grocery stores so that I can have those chips. 

Giving equal air time to the positives and the negatives is where it’s at. It’s not about making this whole experience positive. Because it isn’t. But it is about being aware of all the things. The 50% yuck and the 50% brilliance. 

I love you all. 

And if you want to chat more about this kind of stuff, to work on looking at different perspectives or to learn how to feel better - I am your girl. Reach out to me! I am currently offering free coaching sessions to help during this time.

xo