I used to really worry about what other people thought about me. I didn’t want people not to like me. And I felt as though if I could be likable to all the people around me then that would be so amazing. Because if people like me, then that means I am likable. And if […]
I’ve been waking up with that pit in my stomach this week. That all consuming feeling that seems to wash over me like a tidal wave. The feeling that makes me want to cry and scream and run away. All at the same time. It sucks. I don’t like it. I don’t like it because […]
I went to the doctor with Ty last week and the doctor said that he wasn’t gaining weight according to the way the growth chart says he should. The advice was to start feeding him solids. And to feed him solids first and milk afterward. Say what? Are you for real? That’s the opposite to […]
I was putting sweet Tobes to bed last night and as I was leaving he said: “It’s scary in here. I am going to be scared tonight.” After he shared this with me, I responded with: “You don’t need to be scared my sweet, there is nothing to be afraid of.” Then he said: “Yes […]
It felt tingly in my arms and hollow in my tummy. I could feel my heart beating quickly, my chest felt heavy and my face felt warm. I didn’t like it. I stayed with it because intellectually I know that anxiety is nothing to be afraid of, nothing to worry about. But I still didn’t […]
It’s so easy to judge ourselves for not doing enough, for not playing enough, for not connecting, cleaning, or working enough. But is it really easy? Doesn’t feel easy to me. So maybe it’s not easy, maybe it’s just familiar. It’s familiar to go to the place where we make our actions or inaction mean […]
